Thought in the Dark

I've become a pioneer, of sorts
an explorer of ancient touch
digging deep has left me bewildered
how a night can stain so much

of everything ever wanted from me
of everything honest that I'll never see
the nightmares and screams choke in the dark
Tomorrow, I'll finally be free

An explorer, I am...eager to learn
not much falls to the side
nothing is safe from scrutinization
Come forth now; don't run and hide.

I'm only asking for yourself, true blue
Is that too much to request?
I only hope that myself, with you
is not some remedial test